I lose track of my motivation a lot. So here are some of my motivators below.
Health. With diabetes, I have to eat right. I had a brownie the other day and I felt so horrible I thought we were going to have to go to the ER!!
The mirror. I’m tired of seeing a stranger in the mirror. I want to see me as I see me in my head. Not this obese lady that keeps staring out at me.
Balance. I am way off balance with all of this extra weight on me. I have to be careful or I’ll fall. And when I fall, I crash. Boom. I can’t go hiking mountain trails when I’m afraid I’m going to fall over.
Sleep. I have all this extra weight weighing me down, cutting off my circulation.. making me snore. I have to sleep with a body pillow so I can sleep on my side so I won’t snore. I can’t sleep on my side without it. My hands go numb from the circulation being cut off to them because of all the extra weight. I’m tired of not sleeping well.
My girls. My kids are most important to me. I want to set a good example, show them it can be done if you work hard enough. Right now I’m not doing that. I want them to see that health is important, and that you can do what you set your mind to do.
Strength. I used to get this comment a lot, “You’re strong, for a girl”. It used to frustrate me to no end, the ‘for a girl’ part. Now I’m the weakest I’ve ever been. I’m afraid to help lift things. I want my strength back. I want to be strong again. I don’t want to 2nd guess constantly what I can and can’t lift. I used to have confidence of my strength. I want that back.
Nature. This may sound like an odd one. I grew up in the middle of nowhere, on 40 acres of forest. I was always out in the woods, in nature. I miss that. But I’m not in shape enough to go hiking like I used to. With my balance way off and all this extra weight so I bump into things all of the time, I don’t feel like I’m able to do that.
My clothes. I don’t think people think that larger people have style. Or that they have strange taste. I have the hardest time finding clothes. So I don’t have much clothes. I hardly find anything to wear that I like. but I see all these cute clothes in smaller sizes.
My Husband. I want to wow my husband. I want to be that smaller, healthy, bouncy person I used to be. I don’t have the energy to be bouncy nowadays. But I want to look good for him. And for me.
Motivation is important. Positive motivation. Looking in the mirror and feeling bad does not help. That makes me want another brownie. But looking in the mirror and thinking about how I can look, how I used to look, that motivates me.